A shot of love

Yesterday Elijah had his two month shots. The last time we went to the doctor he had to receive a shot and it about nearly killed me. This time I wasn't going alone--Andy was going to come for reinforcements.

Why do the needles have to be so big when the baby is so small? Apparently they don't make baby sized needles--pain does not discriminate.

The sharp metal point on the needles were so long. The nurse brought them in all lined up on a metal platter with a bunch of band-aids all ready to go.

I thought I knew what to expect. When she was getting ready I was holding E's hands and looking into his eyes--he was so innocent and had no idea what was about to happen to him! Andy says, "where do you want me to be?" I told him just to stand next to me and rub my back or something.

This was more traumatic for me than for the baby.

Upon entrance of the first needle (immediately!) Elijah let out a screeching scream that I hope I never hear again. It made me cry. Each needle had another loud scream but nothing like the first one.

When she was finished I picked him up and held him so close and so tight I was afraid he couldn't breath. The rest of the day he slept against my chest only waking up to scream some more. Poor kid.

I was thinking yesterday about how I wish I could have taken those needles for him. It was painful to watch it happen and although I'm told that it is good for him, I still do not like it.

It makes me think about how much God loves us. He sent his son, his only son, to experience pain. He allowed it to happen. He watched it.

He did it for you. He did it for me.

That's a real shot of love.

The Five B's

This was written by a mentor of mine in New York. I miss his teaching. 

The Five B's: Empowering a Salvationist Vital Soldiership by Captain Young Sung Kim

1. Bible- "homo unius libri," "Sanctify them by the truth; your Word is truth" (John 17:17).
2. Book- "A leader is a reader"
3. Booths- holiness theology; Wesleyan-Arminian heritage; women's ministry; aggressive evangelism
4. Bench- prayer life/spirituality
5. Boots- social holiness and personal holiness