I don't know why but it's always amazing me how much life just keeps moving. Sometimes I just want to stand still and soak it all in. I spoke with a friend in Delaware today to wish him a happy birthday. We both agreed that life is moving too fast but neither of us could come up with a solution to slow it down--only to try and enjoy it.
Why does life have to move so fast? When I was younger I thought that life couldn't move fast enough...I wanted to move out, wanted to finish college, wanted to get married... and now that I have all that I want to slow down long enough to enjoy it.
In ministry I feel like I don't get to enjoy "my" people long enough. Every few months I'm tossed into a new full-time ministry (four places in two years) and with each I have a new group of people to build relationships with and to love...not a lot of time to stop and enjoy being with them it feels like...just time enough to enjoy being with them and reflect about them and miss them some time later on down the road.
The past few months have seen lots of changes in my personal growth and character. I dealt with a very difficult situation at work and it knocked me off my feet for a while. For about a month I simply existed. I didn't enjoy anything...simply went to work and came home and vegged out. I'm glad that's taken its course. Andy was super supportive and loving during the whole fiasco. I love him. I didn't blog during the whole time because I just didn't have anything to say.
Little did I know then was that I was so tired because I was PREGNANT! We are expecting our first child in mid-October (yay!). We are very excited (and I must admit--I'm a bit anxious, too). This all just goes to show that life keeps changing and moving SO fast.
We need to take time to figure out who we are and why we are. I know that I am a chosen child of God, called to a very specific ministry and committed to it more today than yesterday. I know that I love my husband and that outside of my personal relationship with God he is the stabilizer in my constantly changing world. I know that life isn't going to slow down just for me (although sometimes I do tend to think the world revolves around me :-) ) so I need to learn to enjoy what I have and how to cope with the never-ending change.
